Its like rain on your wedding day ...

I swear i had posted this in here, but cant seem to find it, so reposting it ;p

"It's like rain - on your wedding day."

Ahh, the irony that life is.

Which cosmic force is it that so plays with our lives as if with a puppeteer's strings?

Some of us, we grew up hard. We were early exposed the base things that this world is built on: lies, deceptions, and the fact that people, as a whole, don't truly care at all about anyone other than themselves.

So we formed our shells. Our souls became calloused to the point of seeming irreedemability. They were unrecognizable, except to those who knew what to look for. For the most part, we acted normally; we smiled, we joked, and we lived our lives.

We never let anyone in, because to do so would show a weakness so fundamental that it would rock us to our cores. We formed pretenses - near-opaque facsimiles of healthy relationships.

And then, for some of us, the catalyst came along. The person whom, for some inexplicable reason, breaks down our hard-built barricades with ease. Our ramparts fall, our doors open.

And just as soon as the person completes their siege, they are gone. By choice or not, it doesn't matter. So tragically, the point at which you are ready to open your soul and try to see the world as a bright, happy, loving place - that is the point at which reality crashes back into its ruts.

How ironic...and how fitting.

If nothing else, we are jarringly reminded of why we built our defenses in the first place, and we start over again with a greater resolve.

Here I go, one brick at a time.

Paradox of Our Time

Today we have bigger houses and smaller familes
More conveniences, but less time

We have more degrees, but less common sense
More knowledge, but less judgment

We have more experts, but more problems
More medicine, but less wellness

We spend too recklessly
Laugh too little
Drive too fast
Get angry too quickly
Stay up too late
Read too little
Watch too much TV
and pray too seldom

We multiplied our possessions, but reduce our values
We talk too much, love too little, and lie too often

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life
We've added years to life, not life to years

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers
Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints

We spend more, but have less
We buy more, enjoy it less

We've been all the way to the moon and back
But have trouble crossing the street to meet our neighbors

We've conquered outer space
But not inner space

We've split the atom
But not our prejudice

We write more, learn less, plan more, but accomplish less
We've learned to rush, but not to wait
We have higher incomes, but lower morals

We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies, but have less communications

We are long on quantity, but less in quality

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion
Tall men, and short character

More leisure and less fun, more kinds of foods, but less nutrition
Two incomes, but more divorce
Fancier houses, but broken homes

Thats why I propose, that as of today, you do not keep anything for a special occasion, because every day you live is a special occasion

Search for knowledge, read more, sit on your front porch and admire the view without paying attention to your needs

Spend more time with your family and friends, eat your favorite foods, and visit the places you love

Life is a chain of moments of enjoyment, not only about survival

Use your crystal goblets, do not save your best perfume, and use it every time you feel you want it

Remove from your vocabulary phrases like "one of these days" and "someday"
Lets write that letter we thought of writing "one of these days"

Lets tell our families and friends how much we love them
Do not delay anything that adds laughter and joy to your life

Every day, every hour, and every minute is special
And you dont know if it will be your last

If you're too busy to send this message to someone you love,
trust me
"One of these days" you may not be here to send it

The Company You Keep

It is better to be alone; than in the wrong company

Tell me who your best friends are, and i will tell you who you are. If you run with wolves, you will learn how to howl. But, if you associate with eagles, you will learn how to soar to great heights. "A mirror reflects a man's face, but what he is really like is shown by the kind of friends he chooses". The simple but true fact of life is that you become like those with whom you closely associate - for the good and the bad. The less you associate with some peple, the more your life will improve. Any time you tolerate mediocrity in others, it increases your mediocrity. An important attribute in successful people is their impatience with negative thinking and negative acting people. As you grow, your associates will change. Some of your friends will not want you to go on. They will want you to stay where they are. Friends that don't help you climb will want you to crawl. Your friends will stretch your vision or choke your dreams. Those that don't increase you, will eventually decrease you.

Consider this:
* Never receive counsel from unproductive people.
* Never discuss your problems with someone incapable of contributing to the solution, because those who never succeed themselves are always first to tell you how. Not everyone has a right to speak into your life. You are certain to get the worse of the bargain when you exchange ideas with the wrong person.
* Don't follow anyone who's not going anywhere. With some people you spend an evening, with others you invest it.
* Be careful where you stop to inquire for directions along the road of life.
* Wise is the person who fortifies his life with the right friendships.

Obituary of Common Sense

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Mr. Common Sense. Mr. Sense had been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such value lessons as knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the worm, and that life isn't always fair. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don't spend more than you earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not kids, are in charge). His health began to rapidly deteriorate when well intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Mr. Sense declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer aspirin to a student; but, could not inform the parents when a female student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion. Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became contraband; churches became businesses; and prisoners received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense finally gave up the ghost after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot, she spilled a bit in her lap, and was awarded a huge court settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust, his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason. He is survived by a stepbrother and stepsister; My Rights and Ima Whiner.

Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If you still remember him, pass this on; if not, join the majority and do nothing. The only people that remember Common Sense are people over 60. It has taken us only 51 years to totally destroy Common Sense. It started to deteriorate in 1954 and slowly declined ever since. We were raising our children and then Dr. Spock had to stick his nose in and there went Common Sense's pride. Just think about it.

seems to fit my mood lately

a description of my mood - I feel like my spirit is drying up like a bug in a web in the corner of a dusty room.


Is it time to trade in one way of working or living for another? Take a close look at your lifestyle and see if it really suits your soul's needs. Be brave and think about even the smallest ways you could make a change to improve your quality of life -- and the quality of life for those around you. Even making a tiny movement toward change might trigger the universe to fling the doors of opportunity wide open for you. What are you waiting for?

"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life." ~~ James Patterson


"I have no feelings, only calculated reactions, and a poor imitation of things I once knew" ~ unknown

"All I want is a NORMAL life - I dont want unmitigated bliss or eternal growth or winning the lottery.... I would just like somebody to... I'd like somebody to read the newspaper to and go on vacations with and eat microwave popcorn and watch bad movies at home... ya know... the stuff that everybody takes for granted... is that too much to ask? Why is it so hard for me?" - Amy Brennamen (Judging Amy)

and I cant PRAY?

After being interviewed by the school administration, the eager teaching prospect said: "Let me see if I've got this right ...

You want me to go into that room with all those kids, and fill their every waking moment with a love for learning, and I'm supposed to instill a sense of pride in their ethnicity, modify their disruptive behavior, observe them for signs of abuse and even censor their T-shirt messages and dress habits.

You want me to wage a war on drugs and sexually transmitted diseases, check their backpacks for weapons of mass destruction, and raise their self esteem.

You want me to teach them patriotism, good citizenship, sportsmanship, fair play, how to register to vote, how to balance a checkbook, and how to apply for a job.

I am to check their heads for lice, maintain a safe environment, recognize signs of anti-social behavior, make sure all students pass the state exams, even those who don't come to school regularly or complete any of their assignments.

Plus, I am to make sure that all of the students with handicaps get an equal education regardless of the extent of their mental or physical handicap.

I am to communicate regularly with the parents by letter, telephone, newsletter and report card.

All of this I am to do with just a piece of chalk, a computer, a few books, a bulletin board, a big smile ..... AND on a starting salary that qualifies my family for food stamps!

You want me to do all of this and then you tell me ...I CAN'T PRAY?

now theres a thought...

Cancer
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Nobody's issue-free. In fact, think about it -- if you met someone who actually was issue-free, you'd probably be bored to tears. Learn to observe your own neuroses with humor, compassion and detachment.

your secret's out....FOB

Get Busy Living Or Get Busy Dying (do Your Part To Save The Scene And Stop Going To Shows)

Your secret's out...

I know this hurts, it was meant to (it was meant to)
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over you don't don't matter.

.......

I know this hurts, it was meant to (it was meant to)
Your secret's out and the best part is it isn't even a good one
And it's mind over you don't don't don't don't matter

From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
And this is you and me and me and you
Until we've got nothing left!

HOLY SMACK!

"It's like rain - on your wedding day."

Ahh, the irony that life is.

Which cosmic force is it that so plays with our lives as if with a puppeteer's strings?

Some of us, we grew up hard. We were early exposed the base things that this world is built on: lies, deceptions, and the fact that people, as a whole, don't truly care at all about anyone other than themselves.

So we formed our shells. Our souls became calloused to the point of seeming irreedemability. They were unrecognizable, except to those who knew what to look for. For the most part, we acted normally; we smiled, we joked, and we lived our lives.

We never let anyone in, because to do so would show a weakness so fundamental that it would rock us to our cores. We formed pretenses - near-opaque facsimiles of healthy relationships.

And then, for some of us, the catalyst came along. The person whom, for some inexplicable reason, breaks down our hard-built barricades with ease. Our ramparts fall, our doors open.

And just as soon as the person completes their siege, they are gone. By choice or not, it doesn't matter. So tragically, the point at which you are ready to open your soul and try to see the world as a bright, happy, loving place - that is the point at which reality crashes back into its ruts.

How ironic...and how fitting.

If nothing else, we are jarringly reminded of why we built our defenses in the first place, and we start over again with a greater resolve.

Here I go, one brick at a time.

Quite a Day

well, this is from the latest Gilmore Girls episode I watched this morning.... from yesterday I think for any of you GG junkies (definitely me). This is a conversation between Luke and Lorelai... but I'm gonna change one [key word] to suite my needs, for the use of expression....

LL: Quite a day you've had

L: Oh, its been delightful. I think Bobby McPherson is gonna write one of those happy Boo, Boop, Dee, Doo songs of his about this.

.....

L: What a lie it all is....
LL: What all is?
L: [relationships] - it's like a spilled drink that just keeps spilling and you just gotta keep cleaning it up, and you scrub and you scrub.... and you just can't get the stain up. Show me a happy [relationship] .... just... just ONE. I mean, didnt that Tol story guy say something about [relationships]?

LL: probably
L: its a famous thing he said, it's like all [relationships] are unhappy, or, or, or, or, happy on the surface, unhappy in the same way... I don't know.

LL: sounds a little incomplete....
L: well maybe he couldnt complete the thought because he was dealing with a stinking [relationship].

LL: do the Hallmark people know about you? because you're a natural
L: I'm TIRED of cleaning up messes, I'm... I'm TIRED of helping people who do NOTHING to help themselves

LL: I'm sorry you're so upset
.....

LL: try to get some sleep, some rest, watch a little TV - no [relationship] shows

New answering machine message...

"I am not available right now, but thank you for caring enough to call. I am making
some changes in my life. Please leave a message after the beep. If I do not return your call, you are one of the changes."
~~~~~

Thinking this will be mighty appropriate /evil grin

yeah its one of THOSE days...

Shamelessly pirated quote from Nan.... (need to find where you find these profound quotes Nan -- FEED ME!)

"Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia." – E.L. Doctorow


and absolutely, you wouldnt believe the speed of which these personalities race round my wee brain... jostling for a foothold to get themselves down on paper. Yes, these thoughts I give respect as personalities, for what am I without them?

So many numerous little beings all screaming at once inside this shell that houses those neurons and networks that operate my fingers to purge the especially painful, and sometimes, yes, the most blissful experiences that my wretched life consists of.. yet, what am I without them?

To know me, and, to love me is to revel in these quirks and idiosyncrasises and accept them, and nurture them as you would a rare andprecious flower, not hinder them... for again, what am I without them?

Today's Horoscope

as usual, its right on target

Cancer
You're in the middle of great transformation. The actions you take today have a huge impact on your tomorrow. Be aware of all the opportunities in your midst, not just the ones you think are right for you.

New Blog

reposted from another blog:

New Blog
Current mood: aggravated

Well, as some of you know, I've rid myself of some environmental stressors, including a guy that I was dating and let move in with me, and ultimately; long story short; that didnt work out well at all. In the meantime since I kicked him out, so I can get on with my own life and clean up the messes that have been created during the time we were together, he has been visiting my blog(s) and posting things that are just degrading and irritating, when I blocked him and set my profile to private, he then got his sister and all her little friends posting away. I got tired of sitting here deleting rude comments one after another... and found that on the public venue I had only one option to avoid their behavior... delete 14 months of my hard work and start over from scratch. Hellofa sacrifice, but in the long run I know it will be more peaceful.

This is the new blog addy on Blogger for those of you who visit with me on Blogger. I also found that you can search posts from Blogger by username so I had to remake my whole account. SO..... I'm still in process of setting this up with all my links and such, but in my trigger happiness to be rid of the aggravation I forgot to save my old template with links and such... so it will take me probably a day or so to finish setting this all up.

Themis, is the Titan of Justice and Order, and mother to Fates and Seasons. I just felt like at this very moment that was kindof appropriate....

Sweet Freedom

originally posted : Saturday, August 05, 2006
Sweet Freedom

Its done. I now live alone, ALL BY MYSELF. No one to leech off me, no one preventing me from doing my work, no one eating all my food so i have nothing left to eat. No one driving my car but me, no one taking my bank card and spending my money without my permission.

I'm free to live my life and make my own mistakes, I now have no one else to blame but myself for coming up short. Time to turn on the heat and cook up some work and make some money and dig myself out of this hole now. Not to mention further my career by taking the CEC mods and getting ready to sit for my exam.

/takes a HUGE breath of that sweet freedom air................